December 1 2009 -Today, my muse, Tabu, joined the spirit world. He was 15 years old, 12 of which he spent with our family. The first three years of his life were not the best based on the condition he was in when we picked him up in a house where he had been abandoned. We did not want a cat at that time. We had recently said goodbye to Minou, our 16 year old tabby. But my resolve dissipated during the four hour drive to our house with Tabu sitting on my lap as I drove . I had always wanted a cat that would sit on my lap...and that is where you could find Tabu every evening for the past 12 years.
Goodbye, my good little boy!
That being said, whether I'm painting a canvas in my studio or a wall in my house, whether I'm mixing paint or making a recipe, whether I'm photographing my muse, Tabu, or petting him, I am creating. I can never separate the person from the artist. Maybe that's not a bad thing, but I must confess, sometimes my mind is screaming for focus. It just feels like so many ideas, so many projects and so little time!
I look at my cat sometimes and see he has but one focus, his own comfort. Sometimes, I look at him as he sleeps and I envy him. Other times I think "Wake up, Tabu...You're sleeping your life away! You're missing all the good stuff." As for Tabu, he's not thinking at all. He just IS!
Even a muse must earn his keep!
5 comments:
I'm so sad about Tabu's passing... The thing with a cat that's so full of presence and personality, is that you really feel an emptiness when they're gone... but it also makes them all the more memorable. I know you cherish all the memories your precious little muse left you with... (sorry if this made you cry... if it's any consolation I'm crying right now...)
I'm so sorry about the loss of your dear Tabu. Beautiful photographs of a beautiful cat.
Such a beautiful boy, your Tabu. I'm so sorry for your loss. Seeing these beautiful beings that bless us leave is so hard, but having them with us for as long as they are, so important. May your joyful memories fill your heart and far outweigh the sorrow of your loss.
xox k
The paintings and art are wonderful, and the photos of your kitty are sweet.
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